A few fandom members seem to be looking back lately and recalling why they were drawn to Richard Armitage initially. So I thought this might be a good time to look back a bit at my fan history, in the general sense, what led me to embrace this particular type of hobby.
I’ve always enjoyed watching movies and television. Being an extremely shy child, it became an easy way for me to connect with family members who didn’t quite know how to interact with me.
My father and I would regularly watch westerns, spy thrillers, and Karate films together.
You’re not allowed to talk when watching television with my Dad, questions have to wait for commercials or until the end credits roll. this caused me to often miss the plot entirely.
My older brother and I would memorize movie lines word-for-word and shout them out while the movie was playing.
This was the only time our activities together didn’t involve competition of some sort, or end with me crying.
As I grew older and my viewing partners became wrapped up in their responsibilities
I spent my time engulfed in old black & white reruns on television.
And while my school friends moved on into puberty without me–I fought against it, kicking and screaming!
we acquired pay-per-view movies and I was in Heaven!
Being the serious-minded child I was, my tastes ran more towards war, separation, and death.
Puberty did eventually catch up with me, and brought with it the propensity to crush on cute boys.
After I was married and moved away from family and friends, the hobby of crushing on actors became a comfort to me. As an adult, different things interested me than before. I was attracted to the personal way an actor approached their craft, and what type of character lay underneath that chameleon skin. I needed to respect these men in order to admire them.
were they the kind of men that would not only watch television alongside of me, but encourage my questions about the plot?
were they the kind of men who could lightheartedly tease without being purposely mean?
I recently read a suggestion that the average duration of an intense infatuation is 3 years. Hmm. Well, my first adult celebrity crush (Ewan McGregor) ran it’s course for 8 years. Granted, I kept it quiet for awhile and never interacted with anyone concerning it.
Crush number two (Christian Bale) went strong for 5 years. I was heavily active on a fan-forum with this one. (still didn’t know how to post a picture, or even understand the concept of fan-fiction though)
Number three was a book series and actor wrapped into one (Twilight/Robert Pattinson), and it lasted 3 years. I was the most involved in that one. I fought those pesky computer gremlins and overcame my technophobia!
Number two hasn’t really left, just the obsessive nature surrounding it.
I moved on from number three for various reasons that didn’t necessarily concern me, personally.
I sometimes hover around the fandom fringes of my favorite television show (Lost), or my favorite book series (Outlander), but getting into long-winded debates about them just doesn’t interest me.
So taking into account my history, how long will this crush on Richard Armitage last?
I try to embrace what makes me happy. There will always be those who don’t understand; I’m not forcing them to. This is me and it always has been, to varying degrees. I celebrate and share that which I admire. I’m better with it than without it; that should be explanation enough.
as long as this continues, I can see myself settling down here quite contentedly. The fresh air is nice and the exercise is proving beneficial. The scenery is enjoyable too…