Free Form

I have struggled in vain and I can bear it no longer. These past months have been a torment. ~Mr. Darcy, Pride and Prejudice

 

Hi! *waves* long time no see. it’s been awhile since I’ve blogged but I’m still wandering around the fandom.

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A few days ago I saw a retweet of a new fanvid by Girl of Gisborne. I clicked on it because it was described as a “crack” video, and I was curious to see if it could make me laugh. it did, I loved it! it felt so good to laugh at something fandom related again.

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Even though I had recently unfollowed Richard on Twitter

I say who, I say when, I say…who

I found myself still following the drama surrounding his newfound voice, and I saw him say:

 

did Richard just….stand his ground?!

 

 

he soon removed the tweet but that didn’t matter to me this time because that phrase, ‘feel free not to follow‘, got stuck on a loop inside my head. like it was supposed to mean something to me, something important. hmm.

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After months of RA related silence on Twitter, I made a tweet about him (give me a new photoshoot, Richard, and I will tweet your pretty face more often. just sayin’.)

more of this, please!

when someone replied that it was good to see I still liked Richard. it brought to my mind his words describing love. Richard makes me feel all of those things sometimes, with his words and his actions. and that’s okay.

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My 3 year blogging anniversary was in May. on that day I found myself reflecting back on some of the things I had learned throughout my RA fangirling/blogging experience. I didn’t make a post that day but I did save the list I had made:

 

1. I’ve learned that it’s easy to get caught up in the happenings that surround you
2. I’ve learned that it feels better to forgive, than to hold onto a grudge
3. I’ve learned that considering other points of view broadens your horizons
4. I’ve learned that there is a freedom in not having to prove that you are right
5. I’ve learned the appeal of being the class clown
6. I’ve learned that my fan experience is *my* responsibility
7. I’ve learned that Richard and I are not interchangeable
8. I’ve learned that I like leather jackets
9. I’ve learned that I greatly admire subtle acts of rebellion
10. I’ve learned that I like a well trimmed beard
11. I’ve learned that following your heart may cost you friends
12. I’ve learned that I always have a choice

 

I added that last line just yesterday, because I finally realized why Richard’s tweet was on repeat inside my head. Feel Free. free to do my thing and free for Richard to do his.

…and the record stopped skipping.

 

Fanvid Friday: Good For You

‘Good For You’ by Girl of Gisborne. I can watch this video again and again without losing that initial feeling of having stumbled upon a treasure. it’s classy and edgy, sensual and mesmerizing; it represents it’s subject very well. The perfect fanvid to coax me back into Fanvid Fridays!

 

[this video is no longer online]

 

First of all, I really like the rendition of the song used in this video. It’s originally by Selena Gomez but this acoustic version by Anton Hagman switches the gender of the lyrics, while giving it a raspy sensual sound.

The images chosen for the video are all taken from filmed versions of Richard Armitage photoshoots. the contemplative stance perfected in the Fault shoot, the sensual sophistication of the black & white  Esquire shoot, the fashion highlights of the Glamour shoot, among others.

Some of my favorite bits of editing include: the way the video chops up to match the beat of the song as Richard walks by the reflective window; how the lyric “I’m gonna wear this suit you like skin tight” is matched to a quick shot of a dress shirt stretched across Richard’s chest in reaction to his body’s movement; the slight way the film shakes and fades from the color of the taxi cab to an artsy black & white, as we hear the final strum of the song.

the only complaint I have is that it ends just as I become consumed by it! no worries though, that’s what the replay button is for…