I can’t believe I just admitted that. it’s not a lovey-dovey type of thing, certain words or lines within each song remind me of Richard or his characters in some way– not necessarily the whole song, or the focus of the song. I’m willing to share a few of them with you, because evidently I’m not opposed to embarrassing myself endlessly…
better you than me
So first on the “why am I admitting this?!” playlist is “Haunted” by Sinead O’Conner and Shane MacGowan. This was picked for the general way that Richard and his characters haunt me on a daily basis. Specifically the chorus:
“you’ve got a way of walkin’,
you’ve got a way of talkin’. And there’s something about you, and now I know I never ever want to be without you.I want to be haunted by the ghost…”
I like this part too:
“all the girls ask what’s he like, I say he’s kind of shy but that’s the kind of girl I am, he’s my kind of guy.”
Up next is “Blackbird” by Sarah McLachlan. A classic song of redemption that reminds me of Guy of Gisborne.
“Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these broken wings and learn to fly. all your life, you were only waiting for this moment to arise.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these sunken eyes and learn to see. all your life, you were only waiting for this moment to be free.”
“This mirror holds my eyes too bright, I can’t see the others in my life”
this speaks to me of the downfalls of obsession. It can bring things about oneself into better focus but in so doing, real life tends to get neglected.
“I feel numb beneath your tongue, beneath the curse of these lover’s eyes.”
The things Richard says and the way he says them, entrances me sometimes; as does that haunting stare of his.
“tame the ghosts in my head, that run wild and wish me dead”
that line sounds dire but it’s actually positive for me. This admiration of mine, and all that it entails (especially blogging), helps me tame the chaotic thoughts and emotions that constantly jostle around inside of me.
The last song that I want to highlight is“Anything Could Happen” by Ellie Goulding. This one just fires up my imagination and I tend to put all the different RA characters into the various scenarios along with me.
“cover your eyes so you don’t know the secret”
“after the war we said we’d fight together”
The important line though, is:
“I’ll give you everything you need, but I don’t think I need you. I know it’s gonna be alright.”
Because as fun as this fandom thing is and as much enjoyment and insight that I inadvertently get from Richard Armitage, I don’t need it/him. I do enjoy it, though!