It’s In His Kiss

I answer the Meet Cute questions again, this time with John Proctor doing the asking.


Meet Cute: John Proctor


1.) What was your first impression of me?

quiet nature, hard worker, with an understated splash of pizzazz

and I do a little turn on the catwalk...
and I do a little turn on the catwalk


2.) What is your idea of a truly romantic evening with me?

when you “pretend” that you don’t like my cooking but don’t want to hurt my feelings, so you distract me by randomly reenacting scenes from Shakespeare. *whispers* I forget the salt on purpose.

But soft, what light through yonder window breaks?
But soft, what light through yonder window breaks?


3.) Something that you’d like to change in me but don’t have the nerve to tell me

you’re too competitive when playing Musical Chairs at parties. calm down, honey! seriously.

this is why we never go out anymore
this is why we never go out anymore


4.) Which 3 parts of my body are your favorites, and why?

your beard, because I like to feel it brush against my face when we kiss.  your hands, because I like the way they wander when we kiss. and your lips, because I like the way you kiss. a lot.

shoop, shoop, shoop, shoop
shoop, shoop, shoop, shoop


5) 3 qualities that attracted you when we first met, or once you got to know me

you’re strong, confident, and very romantic



6.) What is our favorite movie to watch together, and our favorite song?

we don’t really have a favorite movie, but we’ve been watching a lot of Worst Cooks in America. you say I’d win that competition, hands down. we do have a favorite song though, it’s Hysteria by Def Leppard.


7.) Fruit or vegetable I resemble, and why

an onion, because you’re really good at peeling off layers

note: this gif is broken. it's going the wrong way.
note: this gif is broken. it’s going the wrong way.


8.) Our first date, where did it take place and what did we do?

my father insisted you have dinner at his house. afterwards you and I stepped outside for some educational stargazing. we ended up in the storage shed instead, which turned out to be educational in it’s own right

me, looking for Orion's Belt
me, looking for Orion’s Belt

Father found us and was not happy! he started yelling about hoes and gardens but I wasn’t paying attention…



9.) If we hadn’t met, where would you be right now?

in the shadows. watching. always, watching.



10.) What was on your mind the last time we were intimate?

garden tools

rakes and hoses and really long handles
the long-handled kind


11.) What was the first thing we said to one another?

You: your hand looks heavy, let me hold it for you

Me: ohhh



 12.) What do you like the best about me?

when you sing in the shower

love in an elevator. livin it up when I'm goin down...
love in an elevator. livin it up when I’m goin down



Locked Away

This is one of those songs that’s been playing constantly on the radio lately, so I’ve associated it with something Richard Armitage related.

Locked Away’ by R.City, featuring Adam Levine

(the link will take you to the song on YouTube, in a separate window, so you can play it in the background while viewing this post)


If I got locked away
and we lost it all today
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn’t be strong
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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If a judge “for life” me
would you stay by my side?
Or is ya gonna say good-bye?
can you tell me right now?

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If I couldn’t buy you the fancy things in life, Shawty would it be alright?
Come and show me that you are down

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Now tell me, would you really ride for me? Baby tell me, would you die for me? Would you spend your whole life with me? Would you be there to always hold me down?

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Tell me, would you really cry for me?
Baby don’t lie to me
If I didn’t have anything
I wanna know, would you stick around?

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If I got locked away
and we lost it all today
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn’t be strong
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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All I want is somebody real who don’t need much, a gal I know that I can trust, to be here when money low

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If I did not have nothing else to give but love, would that even be enough?
Girl me need to know

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Now tell me, would you really ride for me? Baby tell me, would you die for me? Would you spend your whole life with me? Would you be there to always hold me down?

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Tell me, would you really cry for me?
Baby don’t lie to me
If I didn’t have anything
I wanna know, would you stick around?

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If I got locked away
and we lost it all today
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn’t be strong
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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Tell me, tell me, would you want me?
tell me, tell me, would you call me?
If you knew I wasn’t ballin,  cause I need a gal who’s always by my side

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Tell me, tell me, do you need me?
tell me, tell me, do you love me?
Or is ya just tryna play me? cause I need a gal to hold me down for life

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If I got locked away
and we lost it all today
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn’t be strong
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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If I got locked away
and we lost it all today
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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If I showed you my flaws
If I couldn’t be strong
Tell me honestly, would you still love me the same?

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(screen caps from RichardArmitageCentral)

For My Own Sake

I know I said in my last post that I was ready to have some fun, and I am more than ready to do so but… I haz thoughts. and I need to say them out loud. I probably shouldn’t add to the drama, just remain quiet about it all instead, but it’s something that’s important to me so I have to say it. my thoughts center around the incident that caused the shirtless Crucible pics uproar and how I feel it’s being misrepresented, also “Armitage Protection Mode” and what it’s really about for some of us, and the way this fandom turns on each other repeatedly and how that makes me feel.

gah! drama
gah! drama


It’s My Party and I Can Perv if I Want to

there has been some talk about a certain FaceBook fan page telling others that they shouldn’t objectify Richard in the latest Crucible shirtless photos that have been making the rounds in the fandom, that this kind of behavior takes away from the message of the play. quite a few bloggers have been stating their opinion that we, as fans, should be able to “appreciate” anyway we choose and we should not tell other fans how to fangirl. I feel that this particular situation has been represented unfairly.

surely not!
surely not!


1.) the fan page in question is not just a general Richard Armitage fanpage, it’s one that was set up specifically to discuss and celebrate The Crucible. and it says in the description “Please keep this a Fun, Respectful, and Friendly place to visit”



2.) when a situation arose that made the administrator of the page uncomfortable (drooling over said pics apart from their context in the play), she made a post explaining her feelings about the issue: that the play was meant to be more than looking at a bare chested man, and therefore she felt it was best to not discuss the pics on the page until more fans had a chance to see them within their original context. there are plenty of other places within the fandom where one can go to see and discuss those particular photos

oh, reaally?


3.) she has every right to control what is and is not discussed or viewed on her page. saying she does not approve of the current reactions to the images does not automatically mean she is telling others how to feel about them. and saying that she does not want the images shown or discussed outside of the play because they’re meant to be taken much more seriously than they have been, does not mean you can’t view or feel differently about the play than she does

my belly is not cute!
my belly is not cute!


This incident has turned into a cause for the right to objectify shirtless Armitage if anyone so chooses, however they choose. by stating her opinions of these photos in relation to the play, the page administrator has been seen as chastising others for not feeling/understanding the weight of the play. but see, this is where I get confused: bloggers are using their own platforms to say that the administrator should not tell the fandom what to do and are getting applauded for it, yet when the administrator did the exact same thing- using her own platform to say that she didn’t like the tone surrounding those pics- she gets ostracized. how are those two things different? they are all using their own spaces, that they are in control of, to state their own opinions. but because one didn’t place the words “I think/feel” in front of her sentences, she’s automatically seen as policing others. have pronouns really become that important?

Bilbo said that, not me. I would never be so materialistic...
Bilbo said that, not me. I would never be so materialistic.


APM: fandom enemy no.1

this isn’t about the photos themselves and the drooling for me, this is about double standards. this is about those who set certain boundaries for themselves and their spaces, getting shamed for not adhering to the status quo. I often make sexual innuendos on this blog and occasionally post a bare chested photo myself. the tone of my blog is light and I take things completely out of context with the gifs and captions that I post, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t have lines I won’t cross. one example: bare bum screen caps/gifs. I don’t post them because I feel that it’s disrespectful to make light of some of those particular shots out of context. while it may be fun to tease about some of them (as I often reference Paul leaving his socks on) I wouldn’t be able to do that with the shots of Lucas. that scene, where he was undressing in order to appease his former captor, is wrought with underlying emotion. it’s about submission, it’s about sacrifice, it’s about Lucas reliving a very difficult time- one that caused him to try and take his own life. I wouldn’t post those pics even if they were being discussed within their original context though, because I also feel that doing so would be disrespectful to both Richard/Lucas and also to my husband  as well, who sometimes reads this blog (seeing his wife drooling over another man would hurt him. I don’t want to do that). when I say “disrespectful”, I’m not only talking about who is in the picture or who may see them but I’m also talking about how they make me feel- my own sensibilities about them. so often I see the defense “Richard is a grown man who has chosen the type of career that will make him desirable to others. he knows this and can take care of himself, he doesn’t need you to do it for him” true, all of that is true. but it’s not just for his sake, it’s for my sake. I don’t want to see certain characters and certain emotional situations made light of, for various personal reasons. I don’t want to see Richard’s body discussed in certain ways because of my respect for the man he is on the inside (because I get embarrassed about it *blushes*) and so I don’t do it in my space. I don’t tell others they can’t post them in their spaces or react to them in the ways that they want to. when I see those things in other spaces, I just keep walking. it’s not always about policing and telling others how they should or should not act, it’s also about us protecting ourselves and our own sensibilities. and yet, we get shamed for it. in trying to promote their own right to view the pics in the fashion that they choose, often fans turn the tables and shame the supposed shamers instead. we all have our reasons. whether we agree with those reasons or not, it would be nice to try and honor the other person’s feelings towards the matter.



Smells Like Teen Spirit

I’m sharing what I think- you don’t have to agree, of course- I’m not telling the fandom how they should feel or act. my hope is that we could not only treat Richard/his characters with respect, but each other as well. that doesn’t mean we can’t have fun, that doesn’t mean we can’t “appreciate” his physical attributes, it just means that we shouldn’t force our will on anyone. but it seems like we’re constantly picking at each other, getting offended over grammar, our rights, who belongs and who doesn’t. we say that our community is a welcoming one and that we all want to celebrate Richard together, but our actions speak differently sometimes. I suspect that if Marlise Boland would have just used the pronoun “we” when talking about the fandom instead of “they”, then there wouldn’t have been nearly as much offense taken when she talked about fans making ring tones out of interview sound bites or captioned gifs. and now that we’re on the subject, since she is a fan herself she should know to ask better questions. I mean, come on! how many times have us seasoned fans heard those same ones before? she clearly does not know the history of this fandom, What. A. Newb. I say that with sarcasm because it’s a “damned if you do, damned if you don’t” situation for her (whether you consider her a fan or a journalist or something in between). take my summary above about the Lucas North undressing scene: were you offended at my summary of what that scene means? if you didn’t exactly agree with my interpretation, you probably just brushed it off and continued reading because you understood that it was my opinion of the scene, even though I didn’t put that ever important “I think/feel” at the beginning of the sentence (or tack on that “in my opinion/just my opinion” safety net at the end).  which is why I think the incidents as of late really don’t have all that much to do with what is being said about them on the surface, it’s about negative feelings towards the particular people who are at the center of them. if nothing else, I just wish we could be real about it.




so yeah. there it is. my thoughts. agree, disagree, or agree to disagree- they are mine in my space. I might end up losing some readers over this. and it certainly does not fall in line with my penchant for trying not to give drama the power. once upon a time I wrote Richard a fan letter. in that letter I mentioned how hard it is for me to exist in any type of community because I just want to enjoy myself, do my own thing, without getting caught up in all the politics and rules. but the interactions I’ve had in this fandom have bettered me as a person, both the good and the bad. I enjoy learning about other people who live far away from me or who live different kind of lives than I do. it’s fun to see what we have in common and to learn about our differences. I like broadening my horizons that way, through the fans and the things that trickle down from Richard’s career choices. what has been the most surprising to me about it all is that people seem to enjoy when I share my enjoyments with them. we can laugh and be silly on this blog, inadvertently breaking down stereotypes and prejudices at the same time, while getting to know each other through discussing Richard and his work. that’s what it’s all about for me. heading up The Thorin Project was a very meaningful experience, not only because of all the heartfelt and personal things we included in that book, but that we did it together. maybe it’s not realistic to hope that we can all be nice to each other, look out for each other, and just have fun as Richard implores. but I’m going to try. for my own sake.


Stage Door: dos and don’ts

After rereading my blog post yesterday I feel I may have come off as too unaffected in regards to wanting to attend The Crucible or standing in line afterwards at the Stage Door.
Sheriff cuts toenails while Gisborne looks on
all stage doors are lepers
Truthfully, my husband got sick of hearing me whine about how I wish I could go to the play and me trying to sell him on the storyline. He made the big mistake of saying he thought it sounded like a good idea but when he checked into changing our flight plans, since we would be nearby for vacation, it was going to cost too much money. Why did he tell me that?! The next several weeks consisted of me trying to come up with every possible option that would work within our budget.
Standring thumbs up gif
good news: they’ll take the kidney!

I’ve (almost) come to terms with the fact that I won’t be attending The Crucible. That doesn’t mean I can’t be equally excited for viewing Into the Storm when it arrives in cinemas. And I am kind of crushing on Gary Morris. It may have something to do with all the wet clothes.

ITS cast looks towards sky

Now my good friend MarieAstra has a ticket to attend The Crucible and will be waiting in one of those long lines to meet Richard. I don’t want her (or anyone else) to think that I’m turning my nose up at that experience. I’m brave in many ways, but meeting Richard at the Stage Door is not one of them.
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So confession #2:
as much as I say I would not wait at the stage door, I sure do fantasize about it a lot…

Lucas "okay baby?"
This map is full of lies! *blinks back frustrated tears* can you help me?

Marie is old hat at the stage door thing, she’s met and conversed with Hugh Jackman, after all. But knowing that she’s a fellow daydreamer too, I thought I’d help her out and share what I’ve learned about this experience from my daydreams. Here are my Dos and Don’ts:


⭐ don’t tell Richard a joke. it will fall flat, trust me. especially if it’s my Bear joke

flat Guy
⭐ don’t take a selfie. you will drop the camera. and RA fans, being kindhearted, will try to “help”. what will ensue is disastrous

Ultimate Force Rugby gif
*cue Benny Hill theme song*


⭐ do subtly lean into Richard while posing for the pic

Guy and Marian "come closer" gif

⭐ don’t be shy, stare into those eyes intently!

Guy looks into your eyes gif
*looses all coherent thought*

⭐ don’t smell him. it will turn weird rather quickly

Sheriff leans over Gisborne's shoulder
⭐ do try not to laugh at everything he says. try hard.

Thorin and Dwalin conspire
should I be frightened?

⭐ if you have an odd laugh, do try to control that too

Lucas warily looks at Genevieve
I’m not sure what that was, but please stop

⭐ don’t worry about your turn taking too long. those other bitches can wait.

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⭐ do reign in your charm. Richard is waiting for the day I will sweep him off his feet (in a purely platonic BFF way, of course), it would be cruel to tempt him before that time comes.

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she’s my soulmate, Marie. I must wait for her, please understand
don’t tell him I’m a dork.
he already knows.

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“Into the Storm” vs “The Crucible” confession

I’m more excited about the upcoming action-thriller Into the Storm than I am the respectable stage play of The Crucible. While The Crucible’s John Proctor looks like he’s chock-full of sex appeal, I’m finding myself drawn to Into the Storm’s loafer-wearing vice principal Gary Morris more than I thought I would.

director directing Richard and Sarah
work it, Mr. Morris!

Gary is a father who is searching for his teenage child; he’s a teacher who willingly carries responsibility on his shoulders; he’s a man who finds himself drawn to a woman, not in a sexually fueled way but more like “we’re in this together.” These are all things that appeal to me and themes that regularly show up in my daydreams.

Gary hugging his son in the rain
yes, I fantasize about fathers hugging their children in the rain all the time, don’t you?

Now there is the whole aspect of me being afraid of tornadoes in real life to consider, so seeing Into the Storm that first time may be nail-bitingly nerve wracking but I think it’s going to be more of a it’s-fun-sometimes-to-be-scared experience that will be enjoyable.

director discussing something with Richard and Nathan
yes, the ladies go for the high-wasted trousers, Richard. we’ve researched every aspect of this story for accuracy

And then there is the important fact that I will actually be able to take part in seeing Into the Storm with relatively little disruption to my life; The Crucible with it’s financial, geographical, and time constraints will be leaving me out of the action. I’ve tried my hardest to find a way around these issues but alas, it is just not meant to be.

Richard in knitted cap and layered coat for Urban & the Shed Crew filming
this is me, living in a van down by the river, but at least I got to see The Crucible!

I greatly enjoyed reading The Crucible, I found the premise and the issues it raised interesting and relevant from both a historical and social angle. Not to mention from a fandom standpoint as well…

Anglophile interview gif
“oh, let’s not go there”

The accounts of the play that I have been reading sound very emotionally intense, and to witness that “live” may carry a heavy weight. Let’s just forget about the whole wait-in-a-ridiculously-long-line-in-a-back-alley-after-an-intense-4-hour-experience-to-steal-2-minutes-of-the-object-of-my-affection’s-attention; I doubt I’d be taking part in that even if I were to attend. I adore you Richard, I really do, but that doesn’t seem worth the hassle.

probably shouldn't have said that, gif

A Matinee performance may leave me in a better mood, since I regularly go to bed at 10pm, but even then I would feel off-kilter standing in line just to say Hello. I’d feel pressured into getting a pic and autograph, even though I don’t really need them, in order to receive the friendly handshake and 3 seconds of looking into those lovely blue peepers that I truly desire. I’d promptly look away, blush, and drown in my awkwardness immediately after, of course.

moving handshake gif
especially if I have to “catch” the handshake!

No, I think I better stick to the sweaty palms brought on by fake tornadoes and the fantasy of Gary Morris rescuing me, it will be safer.

Gary running in tornado rabble
just take the damn loafers off Gary, damsel in distress waiting here!

Confession: I prefer the Into the Storm experience over The Crucible one because in my fantasy Gary will rescue me…not everyone who is standing in front of me, and then everyone behind me as well. I want to be memorable. I’m selfish like that.

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