These Dreams Of You

I thought it might be time to share some more songs from my Richard Armitage playlist.

First up is Today by Joshua Radin. I’ve had a few different celebrity crushes before Richard and even been part of another fandom or two.

sorry, Richard, you weren’t my “first”

It often feels like all of those past experiences have been leading up to this one, to him. I’ve learned some valuable lessons along the way, making it possible to enjoy this one. The things that I found myself admiring in the various other crushes, have all seemed to come together in Richard.

perfect shadows align, behind us

I was wandering for awhile there, knowing I wanted something more; I just had to find it. This time I consciously chose him, instead of being blind-sided by everything that comes with a celebrity crush/fandom.

you are the one I’ve been waiting for today

Being able to express myself freely through blogging and commenting, etc. without the anxiousness that oftentimes plagued me in the past:

you looked right through me,  when there was no one else.

I sat beside you and became myself

Next is a silly one, Don’t Stop Me Now by Queen because Richard said he was an animal on the dance floor…

don’t stop me now, I’m having such a good time, I’m having a ball

200 degrees, that’s why they call me Mr. Fahrenheit

Easy Silence by The Dixie Chicks is one that sort of has a double meaning. I hope Richard has someone like the description in this song, someone who can be a refuge for him from the show-business lifestyle.

the peaceful quiet you create for me

and the way you keep the world at bay for me

but it’s also for the refuge that I find through him and this fandom.

Next is another Mumford & Sons pick, Not Without Haste.

your eyes, they tie me down so hard

I’ll never learn to put up a guard

I think that one is pretty self-explanatory

this ain’t no sham, I am what I am

I finally have the confidence to be myself, without hiding.

and we will be who we are and they’ll heal our scars

sadness will be far away

I get such enjoyment out of blogging and just chatting with people on-line. Sometimes it’s light and sometimes it’s heavy, but through talking with others I find things out about myself that I didn’t realize or that I had forgotten; which can indeed by healing.

I will love with urgency but not with haste

The last one for today is These Dreams Of You by Van Morrison

There’s no deep meaning to this one, just that when I do have dreams with Richard in them, he seems to be doing odd things.

no steamy make-out sessions for you!

I remember one that had Richard and I as Ballet dancers, which is insane because I do not dance. at all.

I just need a good teacher *winks*

In another dream I was completely incompetent in the kitchen, so Richard kept sabotaging the meals that I made for us, so that we would be forced to eat chocolate cake and ice cream instead.

yes, it was chocolate ice cream, Richard!

There was also one that had Thorin and I fighting against orcs, back to back, trying to protect my daughter (because she’s precious!) Our swords looked like they were made out of licorice candy, and the hobbits were helping us by throwing tennis balls at the orcs; they couldn’t resist chasing them, like dogs! After the battle was won, Thorin was trying to lure me into the forest so we could share in some amorous activities together; he was doing so by charming me with horrible pick-up lines. he knew the way to my heart was through humor.

There’s Something About You…

Richard Armitage 30 day challenge

23.) Q: a confession

A: I have a Richard Armitage inspired playlist

I can’t believe I just admitted that. it’s not a lovey-dovey type of thing, certain words or lines within each song remind me of Richard or his characters in some way– not necessarily the whole song, or the focus of the song. I’m willing to share a few of them with you, because evidently I’m not opposed to embarrassing myself endlessly…

better you than me

So first on the “why am I admitting this?!” playlist is “Haunted” by Sinead O’Conner and Shane MacGowan. This was picked for the general way that Richard and his characters haunt me on a daily basis. Specifically the chorus:

“you’ve got a way of walkin’,

you’ve got a way of talkin’. And there’s something about you, and now I know I never ever want to be without you.  I want to be haunted by the ghost…”

I like this part too:

“all the girls ask what’s he like, I say he’s kind of shy but that’s the kind of girl I am, he’s my kind of guy.”

Up next is “Blackbird” by Sarah McLachlan. A classic song of redemption that reminds me of Guy of Gisborne.

“Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these broken wings and learn to fly. all your life, you were only waiting for this moment to arise.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night, take these sunken eyes and learn to see. all your life, you were only waiting for this moment to be free.”

Number three is “At My Most Beautiful” by R.E.M. The lines that stand out to me:

“I read bad poetry into your machine. I save your messages just to hear your voice

(I would totally do that. both the poetry & saving his voice…)

You always listen carefully to awkward rhymes

(Richard always seems to listen so attentively and I can imagine him trying to be encouraging, even if my poetry was horrible!)

“You always say your name, like I wouldn’t know its you”

(He introduces himself respectfully, even when it’s clear that everyone knows exactly who he is)

This next one is a bit more serious, “Lover’s Eyes” by Mumford & Sons

“This mirror holds my eyes too bright,  I can’t see the others in my life”

this speaks to me of the downfalls of obsession. It can bring things about oneself into better focus but in so doing, real life tends to get neglected.

“I feel numb beneath your tongue,  beneath the curse of these lover’s eyes.”

The things Richard says and the way he says them, entrances me sometimes; as does that haunting stare of his.

“tame the ghosts in my head,  that run wild and wish me dead”

that line sounds dire but it’s actually positive for me. This admiration of mine, and all that it entails (especially blogging), helps me tame the chaotic thoughts and emotions that constantly jostle around inside of me.

The last song that I want to highlight is “Anything Could Happen” by Ellie Goulding. This one just fires up my imagination and I tend to put all the different RA characters into the various scenarios along with me.

“cover your eyes so you don’t know the secret”

“after the war we said we’d fight together”

The important line though, is:

“I’ll give you everything you need, but I don’t think I need you. I know it’s gonna be alright.”

Because as fun as this fandom thing is and as much enjoyment and insight that I inadvertently get from Richard Armitage, I don’t need it/him. I  do enjoy it, though!