More Than Just a Simple Welcome

Blog Introspection Challenge

8.) Which post was the most difficult to write?

Some posts are more difficult to put together than others depending on the gifs/pics that I use. for this question though I wanted to focus on a post that was difficult to write for emotional reasons. after sifting back through blog titles to remind myself of the different things I’ve written about, “Welcome Home” jumped out at me as being particularly difficult to write.

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In this post I was focusing on Spooks characters Lucas North and Adam Carter in episode 1 of season 7. I tried to elaborate upon the theme that Adam understood what Lucas was going through, from personal experience. he knew what it was like to be held prisoner (though the time span differed greatly) and he could appreciate the struggles that Lucas was experiencing as he tried to reinsert himself into not only the seemingly simple role as citizen but also his previous life in MI-5.

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I get emotional about Lucas during the best of times

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heartstrings

but this aspect of his story garners the most empathy from me. I mentioned the “Welcome Home” greeting that military veterans sometimes use with one another upon meeting. I’ve seen my father give this greeting and it chokes me up because I think about how difficult it must have been for the Vietnam Vets to serve their country (sometimes against their will) and then be greeted with hostility and contempt upon arriving home. and so I always relate that to Lucas: how very much he sacrificed for his country, with no recognition, how he was handled with kid gloves and essentially assigned a babysitter.

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Adam’s initial handshake upon meeting Lucas for the first time, runs deeper for me than just a simple welcome. so it was hard to find the right balance to convey the depth of what I wanted to say without getting too weighed down in politics or emotions.

Welcome Home
Welcome Home

Fanvid Friday: See What I’ve Become

I haven’t done a Fanvid Friday in awhile but thanks to a retweet of this video that I saw on Twitter, I couldn’t resist!

See What I’ve Become by MsEleanorShelby

This video is superbly done, I have to say that first and foremost! it’s almost like a show-reel of some of Richard’s most dramatic performances but put together in such a way that it becomes it’s own performance.

The opening scene sets the mood: Thorin opens the door to Erebor, bathed in dusty light with blackness all around. a simple low-key piano rhythm keeps time with the flash of several different character faces. (the voice over is part of the original song here) then a black screen with the words “see what I’ve become”. and the ride begins!

String instruments speed up the music. lightening type effects match drum beats. and we start to hear sound bites from our favorite characters to go along with the poignant scenes chosen.

Guy: you do not speak to me!

Lucas: You destroyed me and then you chose to let me live!

I owe you nothing!

We follow Robin’s arrow as we hear him scream, “Gisborne!” and now everything is stepped up into a climatic frenzy! several recognizable scenes flash before us: Thorin blocking Bilbo’s way with his sword, Lucas breaking down a door, Thornton facing an angry mob, Porter punching Collinson… then the eyes. Thornton’s eyes. Lucas’ eyes. Thorin’s eyes. Guy’s eyes. and as we come back down, we follow the image of footsteps down the hallway.

LOVE-LOVE-LOVE this fanvid!

please hop on over to youtube and give it a “thumbs up”! and be sure to check out her other Richard Armitage fanvid as well, it’s full of Richard’s smiles. it will make you smile, I guarantee it!

Fanvid Friday: Save You

yeah, I know it’s Saturday and not Friday…again. I spent Friday night surfing around for fanvideos. I was getting really discouraged because I just wasn’t finding any that I really liked (I’m picky) but then my luck changed. This one, Save Me by Angela C. Ryan/Misshale78 grabbed me, right in the feels.

I really really like this one. It embodies Lucas so strongly for me, the foundation of my feelings for him: I want to save him. I wish I could have been the person he leaned on when he first came back from prison, I wish I could have been who he turned to instead of slimy Genevieve, I wanted to be the person he trusted enough to confide in during the John Bateman reveal. Maybe I couldn’t have prevented any of it but at least he wouldn’t have felt so alone.

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back to the video: the opening image of the barrel of a revolver, very poignant. I really like that the first scene chosen is the one with Lucas and Ruth too. That scene carries so much weight. There’s respect and friendship between them, which really brings home the seriousness of the situation; that Lucas would override that illustrates how very lost he truly is.

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the flashes of the burdens Lucas bears. and those eyes. I wish I could save you

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It’s gonna be alright

 

I’m Sensing a Theme…

Music & More challenge

29.) a role that makes you frown

could you be more specific? there are so many!

 

 

I frowned when Lucas was rejected by Elizabeta and then  jumped off a building.

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I frowned when Guy was played by Marian and then stabbed by his conniving sister.

The Gisbornes: they take sibling rivalry to a whole other level
The Gisbornes: they take sibling rivalry to a whole other level

 

I frowned when Porter’s wife said they were all better off without him and then his head got chopped off.

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she’s all heart

I’m sensing a theme here…

 

I frowned when Standring gave his all to Carol, without concrete results.

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I frowned when Thornton proposed to Margaret, with chastisement as his reward.

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& I will frown all over the place when I see Thorin next!

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music question: a song that makes you sad

Traveling Soldier by the Dixie Chicks

This song is romantic, yet heartbreaking. A young man preparing to go to war, spends a few chaste hours with a sweet teenage waitress. He writes her letters from Vietnam, sharing all his hopes and fears. But then one night at the school football game she hears his name read off the list of local soldiers who wouldn’t be coming home.

 

Crying all alone under the stands
Was a piccolo player in the marching band
And one name read but nobody really cared
But a pretty little girl with a bow in her hair

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stupid depressing questions…

Fanvid Friday: Stranger in Moscow

Stranger in Moscow by Delicate Blossom

This fanvid does a really good job of capturing the inner struggles of Lucas and how he isolates himself. I like the effects during the clap of the chorus, and when the frozen frames are shown in succession. The rear-view mirror shot at 1:02 is cool, and the profile/neck porn at 3:07 is highly enjoyable.

I always have the urge to write a self-insert fanfic after watching this video, to help save Lucas from himself. Becoming better acquainted with the jeans at 2:12 would be a major plot point…